Mission cheer up Brittany.

Was not so successful. Shopping helped a little bit. I got some new clothes and spent a little too much money. And then went to As You Wish and painted a mug which actually helped take my mind off of everything. Randy didn't text me until the end of the day and he seemed fine until I got home to the silent treatment. And then he up and left to Riley's without a word. So now I'm trying to fall asleep but my mind is racing and my anxiety is through the roof. I can never sleep when he's not here and it's not fair. I'm going fishing with my grandpa tomorrow and he's picking me up at 6am but here I am wide awake. Kill me now.